I Am
3:05 PM
I'm an angel, I'm a devil
I am sometimes in between
I'm as bad it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I'm a million colors
Sometimes I'm black and white
I am all extremes
Try figure me out you never can
There's so many things I am
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
I'm someone filled with self-belief
And haunted by self-doubt
I've got all the answers
I've got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I'm up and I am down
But that's part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things I am
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
I'm a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm not sure who I am
bebe
1:42 PM
Nypal
4:51 PM
Been rather busy the past week...took time to help Edna design this poster for her sch...first time doing this,not an excellent piece of work but considering that its my "virgin" piece...is enough to put a smile on my face!
Goofing & Spoofing
9:13 PM
In Hilary Duff's "Come Clean" mode...Wash away my sanity...
Watched tons of brainless chick flicks the past few days...you name it,I've watched it...The Perfect Man,Mean Girls,Just My Luck...starring two major chick flick queens,Hilary Duff & Lindsay Lohan...Feuds/Drama?!Rented new flicks...will wait for my fellow bitchface to watch it with me :)
Pretty exhausted and lethargic...bought pills that the pharmacist recommended,hope it'll help...low blood and the past few days,I felt my heart pulsating and feeling faint and anaemic,maybe its the excess caffeine daily but damn I just can't let myself down by not having my daily 2 dose of caffe mocha :p
Got my issue of Vogue UK...Mischa.Interview really cool and shoots subtle and pretty.Mischa look really like an english rose in those pictures,far cry from her all american O.C Marissa Cooper...
The goofing and spoofing continues...me and my fellow bitchface having a whale of a time watching shows,teasing and leading our so-called dysfunctional lives.I'm really sorry Darius...dear friend that I did not tell you bout *you-know-what-it-is* Not that I've forgotten bout' you,just busy...and please do not tag my box regarding that lol! Oh and notice K.S's Hello Kitty mum-sy nightie lol!
Scram Negativity
10:50 PM
After what seems forever...Im back to blogging.Tons happened and I have moved on...don't wanna dwell on it.Some things are just not worth my thoughts...As usual,felt lost...
I hate or despise no one...I just wanna be left in the wide ocean,fending for myself this time.It can be tough hiding your feelings and tears from others,but now I'm more determined than ever,not to let such situation befall on me again...no matter how hard it will be.The only person I miss and felt that I've let down is Chloe :(
I wouldn't say that the same ol'Ash has evaporised...cause there is a certain part of me remain but a part of me has evolved into another person which I don't know myself...Doing this might backfire or it might be a blessing in disguise but I'll take whatever chances and risk to protect myself...at least I won't be that torn and faded wallpaper anymore...evolving into someone to be reckon with.
At least now there is someone there to always make me smile and laugh...making lame jokes and asking silly questions...and the biggest thing I'm missing out on as well is Laguna Beach - totally miss the drama.Basically major goofing involved with K.S
Fear-Sideways
S-Grunge
Sleepy+BlockHead
Mischa Barton Vogue UK
10:44 PM
My Little Miss Sunshine
5:29 PM
Watched the earliest slot of "Little Miss Sunshine" with E...10.55am in the morning at Lido,I love everything bout' that show...I love that little girl Olive...I love their Volkswagen Camper...I love Toni Collete.Dysfunctional family living a very simple life but yet being so happy.Motivational!!! And one important fact I've learnt from that movie...Beauty pageant queens do indulge in ice cream - Cherry Garcia from Ben & Jerry's
"Hugo" Up to 80% Bazaar Sales...Tons of people but boring stuff
Lunch @ TCC...Boy,its sinful!!!...ate oven baked chicken with linguine,choc devotion and a cup of latte with honey...the latte was way sweet with a capital S, E couldn't even drink a mouth...Forced myself to finish the entire glass.Choc Devotion...sorta choc souffle with choc "lava" sauce oozing out while eating :P Bought a cake for E,"supper"consumption in case of hunger while studying :)
& see me worshipping my newfound religion..The Al'Mighty Caffe Mocha --->
Al'Mighty,Bless Me With Energy Through Your Caffeine
Sipping
Dunzo!!! *BuRp!!!
Mischa Barton Vogue
12:29 PM
November 2006 Issue "Vogue" - Mischa Barton
Watched "World Trade Center" yesterday...I did not really enjoy that movie though.Something is just missing and I couldn't name it.Its really general and sorta fluff.Everything happened so fast in the beginning and kinda dragging in the back...Nicholas Cage and his fellow buried underneath all those rubbles,and guess what?! The al'mighty Jesus guest starred too...with a bottle of mineral water. Seeing those family members'anxiety and uncertainty;going through all that turmoil...pretty heart wrenching.I just love that scene - Maggie Gyllenhaal crying in the arms of her father...saying "How do I tell Bianca that her father is dead"...Now I'm converted to a Maggie Gyllenhaal fan.Brotherhood,love,sacrificial,pain...all those are covered in this movie just like blood smeared everywhere.Tons of respect goes to those who perished amongst the rubbles of World Trade-sacrificing their lives to help people they don't even know :(
Watched "Stay Alive" as well...this time on youtube-yea the ENTIRE MOVIE...haha! Slapstick horror but I enjoyed it...Samaire Armstrong and Sophia Bush starring...avid gamers should be frightened after watching.Oh and that silly countess...totally silly.Love goth Sophia in this movie...especially her death scene - she was hanged upside down and the countess was standing in front and when their vision clicked...Sophia made this kickass statement "Go Fuck Yourself" than she got slashed to death.Samaire Armstrong did live throughout the movie and there is a surprise towards the ending of the movie :) which in the end helped in their survival
Ronald Stelzer
4:28 PM
A shoutout to Ronald!!!! I'm sure you'll feel proud to see your "MP3 Advert" on the billboard? Hey Ronald...I do wanna thank you,for being there for me...encouraging and consoling me when I'm feeling down.I'm really sorry bout the other time when we agreed to go out but in the end...I'll promise you we'll hangout soon yea?!
Friends Forever
3:17 PM
"What is a friend? A single soul in two bodies" - This quote has touched me deeply,it has summarised what I wanna say bout' friendship in just one short sentence.
Through it all,the ability to share my everything with two of my closest friends is by far the highlight of my life.Upon realisation,it has been a marvelous 7 years of friendship - Drama,Tears,Laughters,Anger occurred...with two of the most beautiful ladies.As most people say...it seems impossible to own a close friendship with the opposite gender.'..I'm proud to say I've done it.Touching on that,it brought back memories of me tearing while watching "My Girl"...the scene where little Vada beside Macaulay Culkin's coffin crying...beggin'him not to sleep anymore.
Concerning my two closest friends,it indeed strikes a balance;just like Yin & Yang. Both are beautiful.One thinks ahead and strong while the other one takes everything easily,with a happy-go-lucky vibe going on.These two ladies complete my life...Looking forward to more years of friendship,to see all of us ageing gracefully;spotting our adorable cute toothless grin and wrinkled "raisin" skin.Like what they say..."Friends are God's way of taking care of us"
Shir...you are the one KS and I can always count to when it concerns our problems.You just have the ability to make everything seem so simple...and to provide solid advice.In any case without you,I guess I'll feel very lost.You are not just beautiful but strong and you think far ahead for the future and I do wanna thank you for always being there for me...Looking forward to your wedding with Ron and we've settled that I'll design your wedding gown rite?! And lastly will ask you out more often for our BBT and Watson "dates"...seems like "Er Tou" is our favourite hangout place afterall * Chuckles...lol :P
KS aka Rem...my Bitchface...you know I do love you,all those negative comments are just for tease and for my entertainment purposes...I don't mean it...or maybe some of them haha!Remember those days in secondary school,you are the wallpaper,only being noticed by people through your messy uniform,your horrendous eating habits and your not-yet accustom wierd taste in guys...I'm so proud of you because you evolve and you have emerged as a phoenix in your own league...You are not only beautiful on the outside but definitely inside too...constantly providing laughters in everyone's lives.
Too Little Too Late - Don't Come Beggin'
2:39 PM
The lyrics of Jojo's "Too Little Too Late" reflects what I wanna say to the one who pretends to know it all,both legs aboard,hoping to get the best of both worlds;one word I can offer...Scram!
[Verse 1]
Come with me
Stay the night
You say the words
But boy it don't feel right
What do you expect for me to say
[You know it's just too little too late]
You take my hand
And you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin' don't fool me
Because to you
Its just a game
[You know it's just too little too late]
So let me on down
This time has made me strong
I'm startin' to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know ...
[Verse 2]
I was young
And in love
I gave you everything
But it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate
[You know it's just too little too late]
Go find someone else
I'm lettin' you go
I'm lovin' myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help
'Cause you know ...
